pursuit of jade
many dramas are captivating because they allow people to watch the fantasy and desire they have or the things they admire but does not have the courage to do so in real life. over the…
reflection triggered by heihei’s ivdd
some of you might have heard it from me privately, some had some clue when i sent out the telegram message. it happened really quickly. he woke up and was not able to stand…
Functioning survival mode
We are familiar with fight, flight, freeze or fawn as a survival response from acute stress and situations. Many are now aware that for those who are in survival mode due to traumas are constantly…
learning and reflection – jan 2026
it took me 10 years to realised i have been doing it “wrong” when it comes to building my body of (art) work on social media. i started my “work/business” account in 2016 and since…
seek transparency and partnership instead of (just honesty)
“honesty” is one of the common values that people look for in intimate relationships, me included. but as i gain deeper insights, i realised that honesty alone is no longer enough. i used to always…
Why AI is motivating me to write and show up more
I’ve always enjoyed writing but am also very conscious and cautious because I feel that I have bad grammar and I tend to have a lot of typos. Sometimes I don’t vet my writing.…
oct is physical upgrade – life patterns and cycle
for many year, i have physical “issue” in Oct. 2017: i had my first hives breakout in 30 years. 2018: i stop eating meat overnight. 2019: i stop drinking alcohol overnight. 2021: my body craved…
why it is hard to change your lifestyle, even though it is for the better.
many times, when we start something. we don’t give ourselves enough time and space to ease into it and weave it into our lifestyle. we start big with a BAMM and expect it to integrate…
‘not self’ is self
'not self' is self. it is a part of us. many of you knows that i’m into human design (HD). i love the system. i love how complex it is. i love how we get…
on synchronicity and mirrors
ok, 10 10 is not exactly a mirror image but it does hold a certain energetic charge as other repeated dates/numbers. repetition creates an energetic charge. repeated patterns are often called synchronicity. and it is…