(ok, i look like i eating a packet of sauce.. it is not. this is a packet of liquid enzymes.)
for many year, i have physical “issue” in Oct.
2017: i had my first hives breakout in 30 years.
2018: i stop eating meat overnight.
2019: i stop drinking alcohol overnight.
2021: my body craved to be “fixed” so i saw a TCM.
2022: my body broke up in hives again.
(i cant remember 2020 and 2023. maybe nothing happened?)
and this year, i felt my body was “broken”. my body has always been really damp and i have qi deficiency but it was really bad this period so i felt “broken”.
but before i could do anything, i fell sick. i went to see the TCM right after and was on herb powder for 2 weeks and the doctor “discharge” me asking me to go back only if needed. (giving thanks to how my body is “sensitive” to the herbs and adjust quick.)
but during these two weeks, things also changed. from drinking cold water, sometimes, for an entire day to craving it once every few days. i also drank ribena soda everyday and for the last 2-3 weeks, i only had it once. this itself will help with dampness. though i know this may not last forever and my body gain tolerance and i may crave for it again. (though i hope not)
eg. when i suddenly felt the urge to stop eating meat in 2028, i would puke or have diarrhea if i eat meat. but now, i can get away with eating it (sometimes) so i choose my suffering for the tasty ones.
for alcohol, i stopped for 3 years completely and then starting drinking again only when i want to. but these days, i seem to “fall back” into the old pattern of “i drink cos i can” and my body isn’t liking it.
everything happens in cycles and patterns – just like nature.
and it seems like Oct, for me, is physical upgrading.
our bodies are highly attuned to nature and it is telling us what and how to treat it all the time. the question is always whether we are listening.
p/s : a personal shit of mine is actually wondering when will my body bring me towards shedding these excess fats and weight i’ve gained. but each time i feel this and the reason is because it is the external look, i know i have things to work on still. like logically, i know it is bad cos the internal are effected. but for now, it is still for superficial reason that i want it to be different which is exactly the shit i am (still) letting go off. seriously, fuck you all who i collect these shit from. HAHAHA