I was told that INFJ are prone to lucid dreams and sleep related issues like sleep paralysis. And I've been told many times to write down my dreams and revisit to make sense of them.
Had a few dreams within two weeks that stirred up anger.. causing me to wake up in anger.
I obviously I didn't pay much attention to them. Then last night, I experience sleep paralysis. Instinctively, I pray and asked the angels for help.. and also force my eyes open and put all my effort in moving my body. It did not last very long and I woke, turn over and went back to sleep.
This morning, I woke up and tried to make sense of the whole situation. Few lucid dreams with strong emotions. One horrible experience of sleep paralysis. Definitely nudging me to do something.
Whatever it is, I don't know. But I know I was motivated to do these things.
1) Meditate
2) Find my 'one word', which I was excited to do on last Saturday but felt more strongly to listen to my channeling recording.
3) Play with my angels card!
So I did, starting from meditation.
Then I listed and associate words with the things I am doing.
Yoga
Yoga > Healing > Growth > Health > Potential > Balance > Well Being > Free > Present moment > Flow > Healing > Comfort > Love > Connection > World > Human > Us > Connection > Growth > Progression > Whole
Youth/Training
Youth > Future leaders > Change > Impact > Growth > Progression > Better place > Lesser pain > Love > Harmony > Collaboration > Union > Love > Kind > Win win > Growth > Whole > Community > World > Peace > Whole > Complete
Coaching
Coaching > Improve > Change > Impact > What's next? > Growth > Contribute > Community > Society > Change > Overall health & well being > Better place > World > Impact > Change > Togetherness > Connection
Channeling
Channeling > Healing > Answers > Support > Growth > Progress > Guidance > Divine > Support > Connnection > Universe > World > Community > Us > Connection > World > Us
I know some words came up a few times as I wrote for the same thing.. I deliberately allow it to flow. 🙂
A few words are common throughout the 4.
And the words that stood out for me are growth, balance, connection.
And I do see how everything I do seems to link to how connected we are and also moving to create a better world. But I didn't feel like I'm ready to pick my word, so I pulled out the angels cards.
Coincidentally, 4 cards from each deck dropped out. I did listing for 4 types of work I am doing/about to go into. Eeeeeew. Quick google meaning of the number 4, am not getting the message at this point.. so let me move on first.
Here's the 8 cards I got
Study. Eeeks. Yes. Channeling certification in few weeks time.
Music. Okay, freaky much. It talks about listening to music or picking up an instrument that I learnt before or have been wanting to. I don't usually listen to music and have less than 10 songs in my phone, but recently I've been playing it on my phone, whatever I have. Also, I've recently started playing around with piano. Not that I'm learning it officially, but its something that I wanted to learn when I was younger.
Travel. I like this card! I spoke about aligning and consciously moving my work this year towards my vision of being able to travel around. I'm assuming I'm on the right path! Ha.
Nutrition. Sigh. I have been watching my diet for the last one week. I'm getting goosebumps now.
And then the second deck.
Aurora. Basically talks about my upward trend. Having new opportunities coming to me. Well. Channeling certification being postponed to a date I could make it and then receiving news that I'm accepted to be part of Bali Spirit Festival is probably the start of this upward spiral. Yeah give me more!
Serena. Addressing my concern of financial. Asking me to let go and surrender.. so I can focus on delivering my gift to others.
Azure. Patience and faith. Period.
Rosetta. About my affinity with children. Sigh. And I thought I wanna move towards adults this year.
I do not have a conclusion for these event yet. I started this entry because as I was dwelling on the realization that everything I do seems to link to us being connected and creating a better world, I receive a message about someone committed suicide. I started tearing and asked why.. then I felt pain.. the kind of unbearable pain of someone committing suicide. It must have been tough. And at that point her only way out. I was unable to control my tears and instinctively I picked up my phone to write this.
How are all the events linked? At this point, I do not know. Let dwell on it.